It seems that the New Year, or maybe it’s the end of the old one? either way, this time of year seems to make people stop and reflect, to think about the year that has passed and the one that lies before them. And I am no different. I’m not a big one for New Years Resolutions or one who dwells on the past but at times I do like to have a little moment to take a breath and think.
2014 wasn’t a particularly great year for us, it wasn’t really awful either, but it was tough. As a family we faced a fair wee bit of illness and ‘hard times’ in different ways. At the end of last year, beginning of this, I wrote a post : Immanuel, not knowing that it would be a year that we could be so thankful and aware that we have a God who is with us in every circumstance.
And as I look forward to 2015, it is with a bit of a deep breath and sigh.
I am coming to realise that in this life we are called to be who WE were created to be. Not someone else. Not like yer woman down the road. We were not made to be compared to anyone else. We were not made to be the same as anyone else. We are unique. We are different. We are perfect just the way we are.
And yet, we can’t do it all. We will fail. But we will only fail at the expectations and demands that we put on ourselves.
My resolution this year is to discover what I am meant to do, not what this crazy world tells me to do, or indeed what I let it tell me do. I am going to rediscover the joy in the simple, the joy in the routine and the mundane, the joy in this chapter of life that I am writing right at this moment. The joy of being Karen B.
To all you mums out there who feel you’re not good enough. YOU ARE. You are more than good enough. That little one who puts their arms around your neck tonight loves you to the moon and back – they don’t notice the sticky floors, the messy bathroom, the extra wobble around your middle, the fact that dinner was from a cardboard box and not from fresh local produce. Instead they noticed the story you read, the jigsaw you built, the lego castle you built, the dolls hair that you untangled. And that’s what really matters, right?
So, this year I say, “so long 2014, you were draining” and, “hello 2015 I am ready for you – just me, the way that I was created to be and I am going to find joy in you no matter what.”