I’ve been told this little space of mine was started 2 years ago today. 2 whole years. Naturally it made me stop and think. 2 years I’ve rambled and posted on here, not really knowing if anyone is really that interested in our little world. But also knowing that there are people out there who do care. I’ve really enjoyed blogging. Sometimes I’ve felt like just stopping, other times I’ve thought about trying to make an income from it, but each time I always come back to why I started it in the first place; and that was to encourage other people out there, mums in particular, on this journey that we find ourselves. Because, it sure ain’t an easy one. It’s a wonderful one, but it isn’t an easy one, and one, (that I have found anyway!), isn’t quite what you expected it to be.
2 years ago I started this blog at a time when life was, well, life was just crazy. And had been for the last year. 3 years ago, looking back I was FLAT.OUT. Having 3 tinies, with the eldest being 2 years and 4 months, was a whirlwind. And it was tough. And truth be told it wasn’t really what I had planned just 3 years before that! Gosh, it wasn’t that long ago that I was thinking about going to live, all on my ownio in Uganda. I had dreams of me living in some form of orphanage or home for Street children where maybe 20 or more kids would call me, ‘mum’!!
So, in the midst of embracing this new place that God had called me – a stay at home mum with 3 under 3, this blog was born. I have always loved kids, I have loved playing with kids, teaching kids, doing mission teams with kids, babysitting, being a summer nanny / child minder… So a blog about my life now with own precious children seemed the natural thing to do.
I’ll be honest 2 -3 years ago I was wobbling. Wobbling in life. Being at home all day, every day, with just yourself and 3 babies is tough. And I was scared / ashamed to admit that. You’re not meant to find it hard, are you?! It’s meant to be an easy, natural thing, especially for a P1 teacher who has dreamt of being a mummy since she was 4! If you’re reading this and are finding things tough at the moment, please know that you are not alone and it is ok to find it hard at times. When you have little ones at home, it is exhausting, whether you have 1 or you have 5, it is mentally, physically and emotionally draining. There are days too when it is wonderful and you are winning and those days are truly magical, days when I feel like my heart might actually burst with joy. Days when I pause and look around me and think, I love my life, this is everything I’ve ever dreamt of and more. But the reality is, there are some days when all you really want to do is weep!
(I realise I maybe sound a little unstable here, but I’m not, not really, just trying to be honest!!)
This blog gave me another outlet, a place to channel some of my creativity, another focus in my day. And it has become so much more than that too. A little community that I love dearly. 2 years on and the days when I am winning are getting much more frequent. We’re entering a new chapter in this adventure story that we are writing. I’m still learning what it means to, ’embrace my place’, to not let life pass me by, and to live in the here and now and be fully present wherever I find myself. But I am getting better and am so thankful for a gracious Heavenly Father who offers Hope and Joy and Strength to face the day.
I’m excited for this new chapter – when all of my cherubs will be stepping out into a bit of independence. It’s sure to bring some new challenges, more memories to share with you guys, more experiences to write about…..
So, Happy 2nd Birthday to Making Memories In The Chaos. It’s been a great 2 years, thank you to all of you who read and comment and encourage me daily. It means a lot.
Here’s to another year in Blog Land!