It has been almost exactly one month since I last blogged – one month, bar one day. I didn’t intend for it to be so long, life just kind of got in the way. September has been busy with so many new ‘things’ and routines; a new chapter for us as a family. And while there have been many changes for the little ones, there have been huge changes for me. Without sounding too selfish, I have found September pretty tough. As I type this, this morning, the house is empty. It is silent. Today is the first day for L to stay in preschool for the full time – I will collect her at 1130am. This week has seen S stay in for the full time also, I will collect him at 2pm and J has also started a couple of after school activities meaning that I haven’t collected him until 3pm some days. And while I have to admit to longing for a few hours to myself in the past, I have discovered it really isn’t all it’s cracked up to be!
For 5 and a half years I have always had at least 1 little companion by my side. Every. Single. Day. There has always been someone to change and feed and read stories to and play with. At 1030am today there will be no strawberries to chop, or milk to pour or cheese to cube, there will just be a kettle to boil. My nest feels a little empty this morning.
I know I will get used to it, perhaps even come to embrace it. But for now I am going to wallow in self pity. Drinking gallons of coffee, eating ALL the chocolate digestives and Wispa’s and shed a *few* tears as I look back at these photos….September you’ve been big!